di sebalik finishing skool

         Alhamdulillah, abes dah Finishing Skool programme....eh, bukan dah abes, but dah nak abes dah...yang dah abes 2 session yang wajib....tinggal interview and career session je....good inputs and berbaloi sangat2...juz like what i'm expected before....so, i think, i wanna post something bout this precious opportunity given...
        Let's start with the 1st day~ceramah....ehem, biasalah kalau ceramah ni sure akan bosan but most of the time, x la buhsann sangat....in fact, mRs Fizal 2 pon I dah kenal dah...there were flash backs happened...teringat balik old memories masa jadi volunteer in this programme 3 semester lepas...especially part yang kena interview people yang kita x kenal most...kalau dulu, i was shocked when 1 of my seniors (memang x kenal langsung mamat ni) naik atas stage and interviewed me...and i was....(ha???)....totally blurred....kena usik dengan audience la, kena puji la (sebab nak cover my mistakes je)....my feelings, macam2 ad...malu ad, nervous ad, proud ad, brave ad, semua la...tapi itulah pengalaman & it is also 1 way of learning process....
          But when it comes to my turn to be in the crowd of audience, i got the opportunity to interview unknown people....instead of orang cari kita, i yang mulakan langkah cari orang dulu because if i wait for someone, belum tentu die akan datang to me...so, i just pick somebody in random and i TERpick a very HANDSOME, KACAK guy!!! I'm speechless....grrrrrr.....he is seriously handsome (die ni memang my type la)....tapi x kan la nak senyap je during that awkward conversation, so i made a step and started the conversation...during the conversation, i look straight to his eyes, (even though i had to dongak sikit coz he is a bit tall), die punye muke, malu!!!! so, bile dah tengok die malu sampai tahap x leh nak cover dah, I end the conversation....sian kat mamat hensem 2...tapi serius, i memang x pernah jumpa die langsung dulu...macamane selama 3 tahun belajar di uitm, I x pernah jumpa die...I have no idea from which planet he came from...i thought in uitm business skool x ad la yang memenuhi criteria of a handsome guy tapi ad gak rupenya...but after all, he stay nearby my house...so, the probability nak TERserempak dengan die memang ad....owh, handsom guy...
          Second day, a bit bored...pagi2 la, faci dah aim ak...no wonder she always looked at me before the programme started....(dalam hati: why me????) dah 2, dalam banyak 2 orang dalam faculty, Gmah bleh sama group with me....Gmah: x t'bukak minda ak tau, balik2 muke ko...g keje tengok muke ko...wat keje tengok muke ko...makan tengok muke ko....balik keje pon tengok muke ko....muke ko jeeeee (p/s:jangan marah tau...gurau je)...part yang paling enjoy and havoc is the last part, part yang kena berlakon...gelak je....miss faci 2 mula2 dah pick me but because I don't want to berlakon in front of the floor, i seriously reject and faci x leh cakap pape la coz i've already participate in the previous session....thank Allah so much...kalau x, mau jadi bahan gelak ak nanti....end of the class, miss faci 2 pray on me and wishes me best of luck and will be a lecturer one day...my inside can feel that the words that came from her are pure, full of sincerity....thank you miss faci, I really appreciate it....

the lil' 3Q's

juz now, i saw pic nizam kena tagged....pic birthday present qaisarah...tetiba lak terlintas di minda muke2 kiut budak2 yang nama sume starts with letter 'Q'...Qistina, Qaisy and Qaisarah,...
Qistina....
     Mulut cam bertih jagung...rasa nak gigit je, geram btol!!! cepat mesra btol qistina ni...qistina ni x pandai sorok perasaan die...bila die sedih, obvious sangat sebab die akan silent tetibe...her silence that day, i can feel it coz i felt it too when i was at her age....i still remember when she said, "Qistina rasa cam nak gigit je bontot pak usu, rasa cam strawberry"....that lil' kid.............
Qaisy....
     This young man, muke die, memang ganas btol....contra ngn Qistina, kakak die...tapi muke je ganas, manje tu....ak x bape nak b'main ngn die sangat that time, coz die kecik sangat time 2...but i can still remember his face yang ganas 2...kalu b'lakon watak gengster dalam citer kanak2, sure leh menang award...hehehe
Qaisarah...
      1st time we met, masa tu sarah baby lg...few weeks, i guess....tym cukur jambul...tak sedar waktu berjalan dengan sangat cepat...masa 2, i'm juz 19+ and ur was lil' born...now, dah 1 year old dah, kiut sangat2 and i'm going to reach 21 year olds in few months....
betapa waktu cepat berlalu.........

Lately...

Lately, i feel like kami dah makin jauh, makin x rapat... i mean, one of my boyfriend la...in the early days, we're closed, not too closed, but we have a warm relationship...but i realize yang die dah berubah....bukan die je, but me too...it all started when i knew who he is more deeper...a bit scary la and it makes me become quite in our conversation....die perasan ke??? entah la...tapi susah la camni....there lots of things yang related to him that requires me to be with him....dah la dah ad banyak probs dalam kepala and hati, tambah lagi dengan prob dengan member...
p/s: to awak yang berkenaan....if u read this, please tell me what's in your mind??? kalau awak terasa dengan nurul, please forgive her...this gurl need some time to understand u...but if u make the relationship warm cam dulu, InsyaAllah, she will be back like the gurl that u knew before....

I Miss Him

I miss him, my abang....dh nak dekat a year  dh since die berangkat ke Edinburgh....lama sangat rasa'y....dh rindu sgt dh pada abang...ni baru ak, belum kak hana, tunang abang lg....hisy, ble la abang nak balik ni???? Lately, banyak sangat probs maen2 sambil menari dalam kepala ni...selalu'y, kalu ad probs, abang la ak cari...tp sekarang, kena independant....nak2 lagi, abang dh b'tunang ni and x lama lagi jadi husband orang lak...lagi la ak x ad member tempat ak nak story2...sob, sob, sob.....abang nampak happy je slaloo, tp ak kt sni yg x happy...
Abang, balik la cepat...x pon buzz la slaloo.....kakak miss abang sangat2 ni...banyak gler citer nak story kat abang...kakak need ur advice, ur pointview n ur support......
waaa................Abang, i miss u...