SUNDAY
~I frust tertonggeng bila dapat tau Prince Charming bertunang...menyesal simpan perasaan on him
~ My nenek saudara passed away (she was realy closed to me and took a good care on me when my parents went for hajj & always hugged me when we met)
~ I did not prepared for viva yet but I insisted to go and give her my last tribute...I'm home at 1a.m
~ I don't know what i felt that moment...totally blurred
MONDAY
~ viva (alhamdulillah, semuanya berjalan dengan lancar except for the clashes in booking room but settled rationally)
~ I went to see Pn. Siti for a beg...I thought she would scolded me but she treated me like a mom...and she is the one who understand my situation where nobody understand me and keep blaming me...looking at her reaction, i felt relieved...I cried on Jana
~ Went to State Mosque~the calmest place ever...I talked to Allah, bow to Him...finally my tears dropped...I was so shocked dengan pemergian Cik Awi yang sangat cepat sehinggakan ak tak mampu berkata apa-apa that night, during her funeral...she was so calm that night...I was so sad because I hadn't get any chance to visit arwah during her illness....
TODAY
~ I watched Kau Laksana Bulan today...ak seolah-olah menjadi seperti Adrianna tatkala ketemu kekasih lamanya, Razif bersama-sama anaknya yang juga bernama Adrianna...Kami berdua meraba-raba mencari kekuatan dalam menghadapi kebenaran....dan aku harus pasrah dengan haq yang berada di depan mata...kebenaran bahawa Razifku sudah berpunya....ak gagahkan diri melihat video pertunangan Razif bersama pilihan hatinya...nyata Razifku begitu gembira...adakah aku gembira untuknya??? Tidak, dia bukan lagi Razifku
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